As I write this, I'm feeling a lot of anxiety and disappointment. All of it is quite non-specific--I can't name any particular cause, it's an accumulation of things.
Disappointment has haunted me seemingly forever. That really makes no sense in that I've had a wonderful life. It certainly has made me value the character trait of reliability above all others.
I will add that I don't like being in this anxious state. It's very difficult for me to simply sit with these feelings. I don't feel like doing anything, yet I'm bored. I'm projecting into the future, not a good thing. I can't just "poof it away," and that annoys me, too.
Maybe coffee will help 😉