Wednesday, February 21, 2024

February 21--Lighten Up!

Emotions, in my experience, aren't covered by single words.  --Jeffrey Eugenides

    Just for fun, here's a replay of yesterday's "Notes from the Universe" by Mike Dooley:

The top 10 things dead people want to tell living people are:

1. They're not dead.
2. They're sorry for any pain they caused.
3. There's no such thing as a devil or hell.
4. They were ready to go when they went.
5. You're not ready.
6. They finally understand what they were missing.
7. Nothing can prepare you for the beauty of the moment you arrive.
8. Don't try to understand this now, but life is exceedingly fair.
9. Your pets are as crazy, brilliant, and loving here as they were there.
10. Life really is all about love, but not just loving those who love you…

    Let us not take life so seriously!! 
    Despite highs only in the 60s, I was in the pool in yesterday's Florida morning sunshine. I might mention that the pool water is 96 degrees. I motored around for a half-hour workout, then we just lazed and shared stories and loads of laughter. My body and soul needed this time of complete relaxation.
    Our 4th girlfriend arrives today, woohoo!
    Party on!!!
Where soon I will be...

Tuesday, February 20, 2024

February 20--Pooh Bear Flies

When we're connected to others, we become better people.  --Randy Pausch

    Three of the four girlfriends are together after our safe, easy trip to Florida. The other one arrives tomorrow. We are definitely better together!
    I noticed that the man next to me on our second flight yesterday had a Pooh Bear. I commented that it looked well-loved. It turns out he is an American Airlines pilot on vacation, he takes the Pooh Bear on every flight, and it has flown over 1000! That's the pilot I want flying my plane!
    We are settling in at our friend's "resort." The Rummikub battle has begun! I am eternally grateful for the love, laughter, hugs and support this gang offers each other. Truly "another day in paradise!" 

Monday, February 19, 2024

February 19--Up, Up and Away!

Talk not of wasted affection; affection never was wasted. 
--Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

    I had a productive Sunday to help pull me out of my funk. I journaled and cried. I appreciate YouTube so much, as I was able to use it to teach myself a new crochet pattern. This means that the baby blanket for my new/September grandbaby is underway. I did laundry and finished packing for my trip. I walked Barney, usually an OK chore for me, but he kept stopping and refusing to walk for no apparent reason. I was given a couple tiny succulent plants at a weekend event, and I moved those into a more permanent pot. And of course, I enjoyed my favorite hobby of napping. 
    Mainly my funk is leaving because I am headed to Florida today for a week of fun with three dear girlfriends. 
    Party ON!!!

Sunday, February 18, 2024

February 18--Occasionally Empty

Love is to people what water is to plants.  --Marianne Williamson

    My dad thought that I had a tendency to cry a lot, and he used this phrase, "Her water always was close to her eyes." 
    So it is a frustrated, soul-rinsing kind of morning, and I don't feel like writing a blog post. Some personal journaling seems to be the better route.
    I'll be back tomorrow.

Saturday, February 17, 2024

February 17--Self-Acceptance

It's quite simple: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eyes.  --Antoine De Saint-Exupery

To accept that each of us is just ourself is probably the most courageous thing we will ever do.  --Richard Rohr

    I have become aware over the past couple of years that I am an angry person. Maybe I've known it long-term and have finally 'fessed up to it. I know from my 12-Step work that more often than not, anger is a layer on top of a firm foundation of fear. That foundation was laid for me at age four when my Grammie died suddenly of a heart attack. If that could happen to my mother's mother, what was to prevent it from happening to my mother?!?!?! 
    I would say that I am now in a period of exploring my anger and fear. A lot of anger vents when I am driving. I yell at other drivers, then tell myself that was not a nice thing to do, and I should stop it! So far, this method has been unsuccessful. Miscellaneous comments by my spouse infuriate me way out of proportion to the words spoken. Because I know my reaction is over the top, I keep these irritations to myself. This is enlightening me to how I hold grudges and resentments. I think the underlying fear here is that someone or something damages or wrecks my sense of security, even though I know that security in this world is certainly not guaranteed. 
    Continually working on acceptance,
Being a numbers nerd,
the odometer always entertains me!

Friday, February 16, 2024

February 16--Improvement Is Always Possible

There is nothing in the world so irresistibly contagious as laughter and good humor.  --Charles Dickens

    I am headed to Florida next week to spend a week with three dear girlfriends. Laughter and good humor will be virtually infinite. 
    To add to the good humor of my birthing experience (see yesterday's post), I spoke with one of the SPs who was sitting outside the practice rooms checking in the students as they arrived for their Encounters. She said that we birthing-mother-voices were making so much noise that the people on the floor below us came up to see what was happening! 
    I must comment on the Super Bowl (SB). It was a very tense watch for this Chiefs fan. I love watching the team just because they are so unpredictable. Also memorable for me was the Reese's commercial. I love Reese's peanut butter cups/eggs/trees, etc, and I love their commercials. The SB one started with "We are changing Reese's peanut butter cups." The entire country (world?), including me, yelled, "NO!!!" The next scene was them pouring a big glop of caramel onto a peanut butter cup. The entire country (world?), including me, yelled, "YES!!!" 
    I have already tried the Caramel Big Cup, and my comment to my husband was, "What took them so long?!?!?!" 
    Life is yummy!

Thursday, February 15, 2024

February 15--Five Babies in One Day!

We cannot tell the precise moment when friendship is formed. As in filling a vessel drop by drop, there is at last a drop which makes it run over; so in a series of kindnesses there is at least one which makes the heart run over. 
--Ray Bradbury

    I have several budding friendships with folks I have met over the past year playing pickleball. This excites me to no end. 
    I birthed five babies on Monday! (See the Feb 6 post for background.) At the Kansas College of Osteopathic Medicine (KSCOM), I was in the control room behind a one-way mirror being the voice of the birthing manikin. There were six rooms with 5 Encounters each lasting 18 minutes. It was a monumental teaching effort. Each Encounter had three student doctors who did various evaluations and birthed the baby via a normal (no complications) delivery. For 10 minutes in each Encounter, I was huffing and puffing and having contractions, answering questions and encouraging the students to "get that baby out!!!" Breathing was quite the issue for me. I learned in the first encounter that hyperventilating was way too possible. My huge afternoon of breathing led to total brain-dead exhaustion.
    I stayed afterward for a feedback session. There was another person in the role that I had (they have only two full-person birthing manikins), and the staff raved about how realistic we made it. The doctor instructors loved the Encounters, and they said the students loved them, too. 
    The actress in me is getting to play!!!
Not a great shot, but you 
kinda get the picture.