Thursday, April 10, 2025

April 10--Grief Overload

Live the full life of the mind, exhilarated by new ideas, intoxicated by the romance of the unusual.  --Ernest Hemingway

    Today is the one-year anniversary of the transition of my dear brother, Arlie. I miss him every day. 

Lift up my fears and rain down love.
Lift up my tears and rain down joy.
Lift up my blindness and rain down sight.
Lift up my darkness and rain down light.
Lift up my doubt and rain down faith.
Lift up my grief and rain down grace. 
Lift up my challenge and rain down ease. 
Lift up my worries and rain down peace. 
           --Mary Davis

    I'm living all of those "my" things right now. I'm inviting a monsoon of all those good things. 
        Leta
Mt. Agung, Bali's highest
and most sacred mountain

Wednesday, April 9, 2025

April 9--More Light Please

An awake heart is like a sky that pours light.  --Hafez

    This is Richard Rohr's Daily Meditation from March 30 titled "Islands of Sanity."

Richard Rohr explores the nature of evil—and our collective complicity in it.

After all our religion, higher education, reformations, and revolutions, it seems we’re still quite capable of full complicity in deeds of death. Religions, governments, corporations, and organizations are all highly capable of evil while not recognizing it as such, because it profits us for them to be immoral. Evil finds its almost perfect camouflage in the silent agreements of the group when it appears personally advantageous.

Such deadness continues to show itself in every age. This is what the multifaceted word “sin” is trying to reveal. If we don’t see the shape of evil or recognize how we are fully complicit in it, it will fully control us, while not looking the least like sin. Would “agreed-upon delusion” be a better description? We cannot recognize it or overcome it as isolated individuals, mostly because it’s held together by group consensus. We need to be in solidarity with alternative communities and minority groups to see it. The dominant group normally cannot see its lies—in any country or context. It’s the air we’re breathing, reaffirmed at every gathering of like-minded people.

The beginning of a way out is to honestly see what we are doing. The price we’ll pay is that we will no longer comfortably fit in the dominant group! Mature religion must train us to recognize the many camouflages of evil, or everyone’s future will always be dominated by some form of denied deadness, and not just for the oppressed group; the oppressor dies too, just in much more subtle ways. 

Brian McLaren writes about contemplation as a way of sustaining our spirits and minds while suffering under systems of domination:

Solitary contemplation becomes the doorway into communion—communion with the Spirit in whom we find a new relationship with ourselves, with others, with history, and with the cosmos….

Contemplation may start in silence and solitude, but it never stops there. Especially in times of crisis, when truth is drowning …, we are drawn from contemplative solitude into contemplative community. We find ourselves hungry for communion with others who are also seeking to live examined, mindful lives, to pull aside with even two or three mindful people for deep, honest fellowship. We might come together to sit in silence for a period of time or take a walk together, letting the shushing of our feet passing through autumn leaves hush the noise of a million monkey-minds clacking to the beat of a million keyboards, hankering for our attention….

When even two or three of us gather in the name of truth, honesty, and love, in the name of courage, compassion, and kindness, we find ourselves feeling joined by another presence—the presence of Christ, the way, the truth, and the life. We listen to one another with compassion and curiosity. We speak to one another with wisdom and wonder. We turn together toward the light. And that helps us create islands of sanity in a world that is losing its mind.

    I'm thinking we could use many more "islands of sanity."
        Leta
Artwork from Sydney, Australia

Tuesday, April 8, 2025

April 8--Most Unexpected

To love is to burn, to be on fire.  --Sense and Sensibility, 1995 Screenplay

    I'm not making any promises on blog posts for the time being. Re-entry is proving to be extremely challenging. I figured I would take a day or two to rest then return gradually to my normal active pickleball and swimming life. My body, ravaged by travel and the emotional/spiritual journey that was Bali, has elected a path of acute pain from sciatica. Pain does not lend itself to comfy sleep. Last night I tried sleeping on a recliner coach. I did not sleep at all, and spent several hours crying. Were it not for my sweet angel-love Barney staying all night on the couch with me, I don't know if I would have made it. 
    I am so scared. Scared that this pain won't ever go away. Scared that I don't have what it takes to get back in shape. Scared of the loneliness that accompanies pain. Scared of being a crippled old lady. Just plain scared. I'm getting in plenty of soul-rinsing. 
        Leta
Sweet Barney snoozing
next to me all night

Sunday, April 6, 2025

April 6--"There's No Place Like Home!"

There is no instinct like that of the heart.  --George Gordon Lord Byron

    After a warm welcome by husband and doggie, a Culvers cheeseburger and malt treat, and about 14 hours of sleep, I can finally report that I made it home on time but way over budget!!
    
6-16-16-47

    We were gone 6 weeks, went on 16 different flights, stayed in 16 different hotels. We left Taipei around 11:45 pm on Friday and arrived in Seattle at 7:30 pm on Friday, before we left Taipei. (No wonder my brain is scrambled!) #47 is the fire truck number arriving just after midnight at our Seattle Marriott where some prankster pulled the fire alarm and caused an evacuation. That was great fun for a pair who had been in planes for a very long time, sleep-deprived, and still not home. 
    We are thankful for great travels and the fact that Lanie and I are looking forward to more travels together--two weeks max, however!!!
        Leta


Thursday, April 3, 2025

April 3--Last Day of Bali Tour

There is a sun within every person.  --Rumi

    This is a good reminder for me. Some shine more brightly than others. 
    Today was a very relaxed last day of our Bali tour. After chanting, meditation and breakfast, I spent several hours relaxing in or by the pool. 
    Cricket found during the pandemic an excellent massage therapist, and he had him come to our room at the resort and give us the most excellent massages. I've been dealing with nasty sciatica, and he was most helpful to me. This man makes a good living by massage, even though he charges only about $15/hour. That's how inexpensive things are here. Returning home will be a shock to the purse, for sure. 
    We had our farewell dinner this evening with the whole gang: Komang (our driver), wife Julie, children Theo (5yr) and Tasha (8mo); Edi, Cricket, Lanie, Eric (joined us a week ago) and me. The weather was reasonable and there was no rain. It was great to relax together over an excellent meal. 
    SO ready to head home tomorrow! I'm not sure when my next post will be... stay tuned.
        Leta
Flowers, flowers everywhere!

Wednesday, April 2, 2025

April 2--Nearing the End of Our 6-Week Journey

It is the soul's duty to be loyal to its own desires. It must abandon itself to its master passion.  --Rebecca West

    Less than 48 hours till we head home, yippee!
    Today we left Ubud and went to a sound-healing pyramid. We reclined inside on comfy mats with pillows under our heads and knees. There were assorted gongs played for an hour. It was heavenly relaxing!
Inside the pyramid;
note how they decorate with 
colorful flower petals
    We had a fabulous healthy lunch afterwards, and this cutie came up for some loving:
    Then we visited a wood carving establishment, which had some amazing, intricate carvings, from little sea turtles to full-size dining tables with glass tops over the carving. There were even life-size statues of Jesus and Mary. Several men sit out on the porch of the place and carve all day. 
    Our next stop was a silversmith shop, where we saw the jewelry being hand-made. Though it was beautiful handiwork, I didn't find anything I couldn't live without. 
    We have returned to our first hotel (same room even!) that is in Sanur, near the airport where we leave on Friday. Lanie and I had pizza and drinks for supper and are ready to turn in early. 
    Eternally grateful for air conditioning!
        Leta

Tuesday, April 1, 2025

April 1--No Foolin'--I'm Homesick

Love is many things, none of them logical.  --William Goldman

    April's quote theme is PASSION. My passion right now is to get home. The calendar turning to April means that time is getting much closer. Hallelujah!
    Today after chanting, meditation and breakfast, we drove to a coffee growing/harvesting/roasting operation and had a brief tour. Then we got to sample the varieties along with delicious fried bananas. I paid a ridiculous amount to bring home a special variety which I shall describe in future detail in another post. They also had trees in the area for many different spices such as vanilla beans, pepper, cinnamon, and nutmeg. 
    Then we drove to a hot tourist spot--rice terraces. These are on a steep hillside and we watched farmers preparing the area to plant rice. It is also an adventure spot with ziplines, giant swings and bike on a wire. 
Our view at lunch
Bike on the wire
    After lunch we drove back to our hotel in Ubud, and I spent a couple hours in and by the pool. 
    Now I shall content myself for the evening with a Cubs game and an NBA game. 
    Your party animal, 
        Leta
This is a decoration in the lobby 
of our hotel. The large golden design
in the center is made of 
corrugated cardboard,
I kid you not!